and the spring comes 《立春》

how does it feel to long for a spring that never comes?

wang had a dream of being a western opera singer.
she was a talented and devoted performer.

but she could never be an opera singer.

she was never given the chance
because she was an ugly duck
with no hopes of being a swan.

no matter how hard wang tried
she would always be a deviant.

she would always be a lunatic and a joke.

how much humiliation does it take to
rip off the dreams of a hopeful soul?

if spring comes and goes but nothing changes,
how is it better than a spring that never comes?

i am in love with the historical buildings
and the quiet mood.

it’s not easy to find a place like this in the city.

i can’t imagine living the life of an artist
but i can never live without art

for it brings me peace
and inspiration

and gives me a chance

    if i have to
cry, i’m gonna cry on the inside.
    if i have to bleed, i’ll bruise.

    if
my heart starts going crazy,
    i’m not gonna tell everyone in the world
about it.

    it doesn’t help anything.
    it just makes everyone’s life
worse.

    – extremely loud and
incredibly close

the nine-year-old
protagonist in that novel is very similar to how i
was at that age,
at least in terms of protecting people.

worth hiding myself in the corner of the auditorium
not letting you know i am there.

you still shine as bright as you did.

this is the first time i see you since you’ve given birth.
you are still my everything.

i will do anything
to ensure your happiness.